I got my Mustang last week, there must be something in male DNA (and what seems to be a small fraction of female DNA) that appreciates the rumble of an engine and feeling gravity pull back on you under hard acceleration.

As well I had dinner with my family the other night, had a nice sirloin with a baked potato. My dad put together a slide show with pictures from the last five decades. Got to play with my nieces and my nephew for a bit. It was great!

Ordered a pizza from Papa John's last night. It was really tasty

Meh, it really doesn't matter.

I'm awake at 6 am. I went to bed at about midnight, then woke up at about 4:30. Couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to run with it

I fell asleep watching Accepted and decided since I couldn't sleep I figured I may as well actually watch it.

After watching it I'm feeling somewhat inspired, I don't know what I'm feeling inspired to do. I feel the need to let myself drea.

Do I know how? I find myself thinking things like: I want to do... But then my mind immediately goes to: Will this get me social acceptance? I was thinking about it last night, I wish I knew how it is that I just have fun. Thinking about it, I know when I'm having fun, so I guess it's a matter of paying more attention to what I'm doing when I'm having fun.

Wow, do I complain a lot? I feel like I do. Meh, I'd apologize but, nah, I'll give you guys permission to complain. So long as you're trying to do something about it. I think it's pretty universal that letting things out or rather expressing them helps to validate how you're feeling. I think validation helps in understanding where it's coming from and helps to be able to formulate a solution to it.

So I've complained about it, now what's my solution? Well I'm not sure, I've got some ideas I'm going to try.

My biggest idea is that I actually try something.

I know what I need to do to improve my life, but I haven't actually done much along those lines.

On a lighter note, I'm still trying to figure out how to get mascara off, I think I got all the foundation, lipstick and eyeliner. It was a fun night, I'll get some incriminating photos up here soon The things I do to help my dad out . But I digress, how many people can they know what they look like long black hair, makeup, a skin tight Blondie t-shirt, and a cupcake skirt? Even better, how many people can say the know what their dad looks like with shaved legs and hair extensions (mine looks a lot like Wierd Al Yankovic)?

It takes a real man to wear hot-pants.

Well time to start the day

Everyone make it a great one!

Yay, I finished my math homework. Life is going to suck in the morning, but oh well. It'll be a typical, busy, Wednesday for me. First school, then work, then back to school (I have to give a persuasive speech), then to Karate. Ahh joy, just never any time to slow down for me. In some ways it's great, in others not so much.

I'm really looking forward to end of this semester!

Everyone make it a great one!

Seems crazy

Today I didn't work much of the life development stuff per-se but have a realization about life and one reason I think it's so precious. Life is fragile, it is because it can be taken away so easily that life is so valuable.

This life is a gift to be enjoyed, not a puzzle to be figured out. As cheezy as that sounds, it is something that I am beginning to understand more on a daily basis. I think understanding that is helping me to put the "stresses" in my life into perspective. It's all wonderful, just simply because I'm alive. That's much more easily understood than to live I think. But I'm getting closer

I've noticed that my posts have been a lot shorter the last little bit. I don't think it's that I'm running out of things to say. I think a lot of it is that many of the things I've felt and experienced recently have been very personal and I wouldn't know how to share them or if I should share them. So I've left them to process more and see what comes back.

I did have an interesting moment of clarity on the importance of being congruent with yourself. Really it's the importance of understanding an accepting yourself for who you are. It's in establishing your belief system and living uncompromisingly by that system that we find real strength to weather storms that come through our lives. For me this is a big thing at this point as I can spout all sorts of philosophical stuff, but I don't really live much of it. So many things I see as great ideas, but I never work to put them into practice in my own life. Something to keep pondering/meditating over.

On the lighter side: Hope everyone had a happy Halloween.

I went to a friend's birthday party/Halloween party. I almost didn't go, I've not been feeling too well today. But I'm glad I went, it was a lot of fun. Having fun with a friend is always a good thing anyway He also told me he'd been setting the party up for a month. It really was a blast, lots of food, and great people to talk to. Just got to mingle and have fun.

I'll get a video posted tomorrow, so everyone stay tuned