100 Day Challenge: Day 10
10 Days Down 90 more to go 
Wow, I am really tired tonight. I thought I was mostly over whatever this is (has the symptoms of the flu, but they're pretty much all gone except that I'm really tired.)
It seems like Fear was a big topic for the day. Thought about it before I went to be last night/this morning as it was a major theme in my negative emotions list.
Then nothing else really happened until I was in one of my classes and my teacher started talking about fear. How it's a learned behavior, babies don't experience fear. They have a toy and you take it away, yeah they'll cry, but they don't fear loosing the toy while they have it.
Without conflict there can be no development.
One of the first people I saw that started going through one of these 100 Day challenges said in one of his video logs that we must understand that whatever we have can be taken away. However if it is taken away we can rebuild what was lost.
If you did it once, why can't you do it again? The thing is it'll probably be easier the second time.
Life flows in cycles of creation and destruction. New ideas replacing old ones, new clothes going into your closet as old ones come out. I myself have to clean out my computer component collection every once in a while. What I find interesting is that most of the time when I get rid of things more stuff shows up to take it's place.
One of my roommates was watching a YouTube video or reading a book and there was a comment about how really rich people don't have a lot of stuff. After hearing that I stopped and thought about it, I used to install hardwood floors. There were a number of wealthy homes that I worked in. Looking at the homes through that perspective, yeah they didn't have a lot of stuff. Or at least clutter. There were lots of wide open spaces in their homes.
Thinking about it, I have an experiment that I'm going to try. Well more continue from my post about the clean sweep. I wonder if all the clutter in my life is preventing/hindering new energy from entering into my life. Clothes I don't wear, electronics, I don't use, boxes full of random stuff. All of it taking up space in my life and preventing new energy from coming in.
Let's see what new things show up in life when I make room for them
So back to the beginning of the post, what does this all have to do with fear, more specifically, fear of loss? Maybe we shouldn't be afraid of what might be "lost" and enjoy what we have while we have it. When it eventually disappears, we can see what replaces it and decide what to do then.
Everyone have a good night!
A Clean Sweep
As mentioned a few times prior, I've been having a rough go of things as of late.
After another night of pretty restful sleep I woke up feeling pretty good, I took a shower and shaved. Then grabbed my laundry hamper and headed for the laundry mat.
I really like going there to do laundry. It's actually very convenient. I just show up with my laundry and soap, I'll usually grab a Subway sandwich after I pull some cash out of my bank account for quarters. Then I head in and get to work.
The thing I really enjoy about doing laundry at the mat is that I'm not limited to one washer and dryer. I've gone in before with all my bedding, towels, clothes, and Karate Uniforms (at this point I have 6). I've ended up using eight washers at a time, one of which was a double load. Then once everything is washed, I just throw it in a bunch of dryers. When it's all said and I done I can have all my laundry done in about an hour and a half.
When I got home after my adventure at The Mat, I hung up my clothes and put them away (something I don't do a lot of times.) I looked around my room and realized how nice it was to things in better order than they were. (Last night I cleaned up the various stacks of books I'd been reading through lately, and been thinking about how to better utilize the space in my closets. Yes, I have a lot of crap.)
I've started thinking about what other things I've cleaned out over the past week, my roommate and I finally finished unpacking crap that's been sitting in our kitchen for about two and a half months now. As well I finished a half-dozen things on my car that were half done for a while.
While I've been reflecting over this a thought came to mind. "Every mess in your life is an obstacle to success." That was a quote in a newsletter I receive during the week called: Insight of the day.
As I've been cleaning things in my life up, I've felt more energy being freed up to give me a much needed boost. As well I realized that I can still be creative and come up with things while I'm cleaning. The inspiration for this post came while I was putting my previously mentioned laundry away.
An interesting side effect is that I can feel some uneasiness internally dissipating. As a result I've felt less energy being wasted, as such I'm feeling better than I was yesterday.
So with that in mind, what messes in you life can you take some time to clean up and make yourself feel better overall?