Inspiration
I found myself watching the best movie review I have ever seen for the the third time. This thing is 70 minutes long and I suggest if you are at all of a fan of Star Wars that you watch this scathing review of Episode 1.
I will admit when I saw this the first time I thought Episode 1 was cool. But then again I was ~16 and didn't understand film all that well (I still don't), and this guy puts a point on so many things that are WRONG with Episode 1.
(Before you go on, I'm going to give a warning about some strong language.)
Here are some convenient links so that you can take my advice:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Another one of my internet heroes is: "The Angy Video Game Nerd" aka James Rolfe of Cinemassacre.com
He does film work, reviews of movies, and my favorite part: reviews of crappy video games.
Some of my favorites are:
The Indiana Jone Trilogy
The Wizard/Super Mario Brothers 3
Metal Gear
Ninja Gaiden
Sooo, the reason I brought these guys up. They make a living at things they are passionate about. At least I'm going to guess the guys at Red Letter Media do, James Rolf aka the AVGN, does stuff regularly for Spike TV.
Which is right inline with the Self-Actualization level of Mazlow's Hierarchy of Needs.
Stuff to think about 
2010 a Year of Rediscovery
So far 2010 is shaping up to be an interesting year.
As I've mentioned before I've had somewhat of a fog that's been in my way. I've lacked direction and I've been dealing with a bit of pain and suffering because of it lately.
There was a bit of wisdom I found about suffering and how it means that a part of you is being purified. I have also been developing a better awareness of both the separation and the connection between mind body and spirit. Something that I am unable to put into words. But it is bringing a feeling of peace and understanding to what I've been experiencing.
Earlier this evening I was studying for a Computerized Placement Test that I'm planning on taking this coming week before school starts. It was while I was studying that I realized if I was really motivated to move forward with my Math education I'd already have done the review and not be cramming for the test right before it.
I've mentioned it before, I'm not sure about going for a degree in Computer Science.
I had the thought of not worrying about the CPT and continuing to work through my algebra books and then taking it during the summer. If I decide that Computer Science is something I do in fact want to pursue then I can take more math classes over the summer. For the upcoming semester I think I'm going to take an art class and a writing class.
It hit me earlier while I was thinking about Math that I don't really spend any time programming. When i do program, it seems more of a chore than anything. I do however write on a regular basis and spend time thinking about how I can write better. Not to mention I do enjoy it.
Why should I be afraid to take a chance?
A couple of days ago I read a story about an inspired idea and what following those ideas lead to. I realized this in fact is an inspired idea, what really tipped it off was the clarity, peace, and I also felt exhilarated by it. So I'm going to follow it and see what happens. Really the worst that could happen is that I'll figure out that I really want to program and I'll have been set back by a semester.
Just relax and let success flow my way.
Today, my girlfriend asked me what kind of lifestyle I want to live. It got me thinking, I want to have the freedom to take days off when I want them, I want a comfortable home with some creativity thrown into the design, I want a family, and I want a wife that I can't imagine living without.
Everyone make it a great one!