100 Day Challenge: Day 29
Wow, starting into week number five!
Used the webcam on my netbook for the first time tonight, I forgot that most webcams have a warm up. So that's why the color shifts part way through.
I noticed an overall lesson on pride this week. After a thought about "empty your cup" while I was watching a video on pride I can't look at pride the same way. Really pride seems to make us unflexible and brittle. Brittle things break. It's really that simple.
The really interesting thing is in seeing how much pride plays into life. Trying to "take control" of life is prideful, control is all an illusion anyway. That's why it's best to let go of the outcome. It's good to have an outcome in mind (which was a lesson for me this week as well), but it's best just to trust, and let go and let God.
I feel like my thought processes were a bit broken while making the video, I apologize if they were. I make the videos and theses posts pretty much on the fly. But then again for me I find that's best, that way I don't get stuck in over analyzing things.
My big intention for the week is really to understand myself better. Just like Martial Arts, I need to have a strong base with understanding myself so that I have a good foundation to build on. I have a feeling that once I understand myself better and can create a clearer image of myself in my mind things will come together much more smoothly.
Well everyone wish me luck and make it a great one!
100 Day Challenge: Day 28
Another delayed reply, sorry.
Actually I should really apologize, I've been having difficulties wanting to write an update everyday lately. There are some days I don't see things on a day to day basis, but I have seen things happen over a couple of days.
I can't point to things over the last couple of days that I've been learning (I know they're there, just can't recall them exactly). I did have a big win the other day.
I have a couple of new roommates: Glacius and Cobra Commander. They're only about 9 weeks old and they're brothers.
They've been a lot of fun to have in the apartment over the last couple of days, they're both very sweet and have lots of energy.
Lets see, oh yeah, I got my whiteboard up next to my desk finally! It involved using a drill and hammering in sheet-rock load sleeves (or whatever you want to call them). Is it sad that's one of the highlights of my week? Meh, I'm glad it's up so now I have an easy place to write notes and ideas down 
(or things like lessons learned).
So I've been thinking that this site is great, I really like writing about my 100 Day Challenge progress. But I'm finding it difficult to come up with topics beyond that right now and it's getting a bit boring writing only about that for about a month now. So I'm going to start writing some other articles about things. I've mentioned video games before, I'll probably start with some older ones that have a lot of nostalgia value for me (Finally Fantasy III/VI, Chrono Trigger, Mega Man, etc).
As well I'm also thinking I'm going to put my experiences during this process and prior to into an e-book. I'm not sure what will really make it different from a lot of "self-help" books out there, other than it will be written by me. Of course I am seeing that the majority of my life improvement involves Martial Arts so I may approach them from that angle. As well I have some other ideas to mix in there.
Now that I think about it, I keep seeing the idea of specific purpose coming up in my life. Perhaps it's because I still feel like I'm floating and just waiting for something to happen. Part of me has no idea where to begin with trying to figure that out. I keep coming back to writing video games. But I don't know if I want to program them or design them. I really should start a project and work on some short ones to see what I like I guess. Things I do know: I love story, good back story that make characters and places more vivid. Maybe I should star there.
Then again, not to sound like a cop-out, I'm probably going to leave a majority of this to my upcoming break. I have over a month off and I intend to use it. I'm going to try scheduling my free time though. So it'll be more fulfilling rather than just "end up" watching YouTube for a month. Really I think that realization in and of itself is a good one (needing to set a schedule for myself). Hmmm maybe that's something I'll have to try this week with my time. I'll see how much it helps to have a clear schedule of what needs to be done.
Something else that I would like to do is to write more interesting articles. These journal entries are fine to get my thoughts down, but I don't do much in the way of a writing process. Just sort of type things up as they come to mind. I'll proofread a little bit and call it good. But I think I want to try writing some actual articles on things. I guess now I need to come up with some subjects to write about. One thing at a time
Everyone make it a great one!